Honorful.

Something doing like that is honorful.
That's what you said.
I wonder how you feel.
I wonder if you feel that it's so unfair sometimes.
It makes us work harder.
That's what I know.
It's good.
It's OK.
But what do you do when you want to be there so badly, but you can't.
I still doubt if it's worth it.
But we will find out soon enough.
Until that moment,
I will keep you up-to-date.
I wonder how you are doing.
It feels like we are in same situation.
I just hope this won't crush one of us.
That would be too bad.