Cry.

Sometimes I just want to cry,
Fall apart in your arms an cry.

You are real.

And I wish I saw Your eyes looking straight at me when I walk away, when I stumble and fall, when I smile, when I cry, when I try and give it all...
I wish I could see Your face, just to tell everyone what I saw, just to tell them that You are real....

Should I?

Sometimes I feel like I am flying.
Sometimes it feels like I am drowning.
And I am not sure how to act, how to react.
Should I tell you what's on my mind?
Should I tell you what I feel?
Should I tell what I truly want?
Is it worth the confusion?
The times I am unsure about what I am doing...
Because I don't know...

Change in the making.

Wish I could live more patiently
Wish I could give a little more of me
Without stopping to think twice
Wish I had faith like a little child
Wish I could walk a single mile
Without tripping on my own feet
But You’re not through with me yet




Addison Road - Change in the making

=]

Give me back,
What I am giving you,
Let me in,
I am going to melt you,
On the inside,
I am going to break down every wall around you,
I want to steal what belongs to you,
And I feel like,
I am going to do everything that it takes,
To reach what I want to...

Remember....

Remember crazy times.
Remember the time when everything changed.
Remember the day You came into my life.
Remember the day I lost someone special.
Remember the day when I said goodbye to the most beautiful things ever.
Remember when I felt so happy that I cried.
Remember the day I met you.

You can try to make me forget, but I will always remember...
Every single thing.

I want to know you.

You left me speechless...
And I am not sure what to think.
But I won't let go that easily.
Because I want to know how,
I want to know why.

I want to know the person behind that beautiful smile.
Did everyone ever told you how beautiful you are, on the inside and the outside...
I'd hug you if you were here right now, yes I would.
I miss you.

<3

Me.

For once in my life,
I want to see my own face instead of yours.
I want to see what it looks like and stop giving away who I truly am.
Yeah well I obviously care, like a lot...
But still, for once in my life I would like to be filled up...
For all my days and night...
And never feel lonely...
Never feel like I have lost something...
I would like to see me this time.
Only me,
Because I can't see you and I can't see me anymore...

Dissolve...

Right now I wish I would dissolve in the pouring rain and the freezing wind...
And I would like to come back when the storm in me is calmed down...
When things are safe again...

Stranger.

Me?
I am just a random stranger...
Passing by...
And when I passed by, I caught your eye..
My mind said: 'Hey! I don't know you, you are new ^^.
And you seem interesting somehow.'
And I said hello and told you my name.

And well,
All I am trying to say is,
That I don't know what to say or do.
I feel like trying to be perfect.
But I guess that's impossible...
I want to be myself...
But sometimes I just don't know how...
I'd rather hide behind jokes and laughs...
And I hope you'll see through it...
That even though I like to mess around,
I can be quite serious about the things/people I care about...
I guess I am 2 totally different sides in one person.

Maybe, maybe I'll tell you one day...
What I think, what I thought...
For now, I just hope you don't dislike me for who I am.

Who decides?

Who decides who I am?
Who decides who I should be?
Who decides what's right for me?
Who decides what's right and what's wrong?
Who decides what I should think or feel?
Who decides?

No-one does.
It will either be me, or Him...

Voices.

Your voices entwine,
Like raindrops,
Pouring down on the windows of a car.
And they disappear,
In the rain.
But I remember them,
Because I saw them.
And just a moment ago,
They were still here.

Your voices confuse me.
Because they are so the same and yet so different.
And I don't know which voice to listen to.
And they both scream for my attention.
How come I can't decide by myself?
How come my heart is deciding?
And just leads me to any place it wants to.
And why am I just swirling around like an autumn leaf?
Why do I flutter around like a butterfly?
I don't know who is talking to who...
I don't know which voice is louder...

Annoying.

I wasn't annoyed by you or your presence.
I was annoyed by the way I felt when I was around you.
I should have known that.
But I didn't know, or I did know,
But I was just ignoring it...

Less than three.

Blow my mind.
Light up my heart.
Heat me up and cool me down.
Light up that little flame.
Don't stop making me smile.
Don't stop making my heart dance and jump around.

You see,
Your presence makes me smile, your presence makes me happy.
Your presence makes me nervous and shy.
This feeling feels so much like flying,
And falling at the same time.

Uncertain.

I am not sure.
But just as you said 6 years ago,
'Life is like a chocolatebox, you never know what you're gonna get.'
&
'If you never try then you'll never know.'

Guess I will find out soon enough :).

Happy.

I miss you,
Sometimes when you are not there...
I always check if you are there...
I always want to talk to you...
And when you aren't there,
I wonder what you are doing, where you are and what you are thinking...

I keep remembering every single thing from the last two years...
I keep going over and over every single detail.
I keep wondering and wondering...
It's like I missed something.
And whenever I seem to let go of things,
You show up,
And cross my mind again.

And I am starting to become more and more honest with you.
But I don't want to ask you for anything.
It would seem selfish or unfair to do that.

All I want is you to be happy...
I want you to smile.

Scream.

You make me want to scream,
Fight you,
Chase you,
Pin you to the wall...

And I would keep screaming: ''Why?!''

Why is it so hard to give me what I am asking for?
I won't kill you for doing that.
I don't want to be hateful or anything like that.
But if things like this happen, I start regretting every word I ever said.
Every time I waited...
Every second I wasted..
I can't do it anymore...


If you want me,
Come after me,
Fight for me,
Care for me,
Show me who you are...
And well if you don't,
So be it.
Make your own choices.
I already made mine.
And if that means,
I'll lose you,
So be it.
There is nothing else I can do right now.

I'm sorry.

Never!?

Whatever it is that makes me smile,
If it would be you,
Would that be ok?

But whatever it is that makes me happy,
I feel,
I think,
I won't ever get what I want...

Walk away.

It is clearing,
And yet confusing at the same time.

And everything feels half,
Like I wouldn't be totally statisfied,
I am still not sure if it is just me who thinks that or that I should do more with it.

They say a cup is never fully empty or halfway empty,
There is always something inside the cup.
I just need to turn the cup upside down and catch the drops.
I need to see what's inside...
And every drop would count...
But the point is,
If you don't refill the cup you will remain thirsty...

What I am trying to say is:

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave


Kelly Clarkson - Walk away

The truth.

I feel empty,
Sad,
Alone,
And confused...


Is this the truth?
The whole truth?
Because if it is not,
Then you would only make me feel like,
You leave me hanging,
Around here,
Somewhere.

And I wish I knew,
Who you are.
Because right now,
I really don't know anymore.

Angels.

Wake me if you're out there

Through the glass in my bedroom window
In the bushes far below
I thought I saw an unfamiliar shadow
Among the ones I so clearly know

I've been sleeping with the night light unplugged
With a note on the rocking chair
That says, "I'm dreaming of the life I once loved,
So wake me if you're out there."

Living close to the ground
Is seventh heaven 'cause there are angels all around
Among my frivolous thoughts
I believe there are beautiful things seen by the astronauts
Wake me if you're out there

Wake me if you're out there

In the dust on my cellar staircase
A pair of footprints followed me
I saw a flicker in the fake fireplace
Blinked again but there was nothing to see

I've been leaving all the windows unlocked
With a basket by the oak tree
'Cause I'll be pickin' up the acorns that fall off
If you'll be climbing up to meet me

Living close to the ground
Is seventh heaven 'cause there are angels all around
Among my frivolous thoughts
I believe there are beautiful things seen by the astronauts
Wake me if you're out there

I keep my knees black and blue
'Cause they often hit the hard wood floor
(Wake me if you're out there)
And I believe, so I'm not praying to the ceiling anymore

I've been sleeping with the night light unplugged
With a note on the rocking chair
That says, "I'm dreaming of the life I once loved,
So wake me if you're out there."

Living close to the ground
Is seventh heaven 'cause there are angels all around
Among my frivolous thoughts
I believe there are beautiful things seen by the astronauts

The indications reveal
(Wake me if you're out there)
That few of us realize life is quite surreal
So if you're dying to see
I guarantee there are angels around your vicinity
So if you're dying to see
I guarantee there are angels around your vicinity


Owl City - Angels

Teddybear.

Your spirit is sweet, so pull off your sheet
And give me a ghost of a smile
Show me your teeth, 'cause you're a teddy beneath
So just grin and bear it a while
Just grin and bear it a while




Owl City - Plant Life

Safe.

Come and join me to watch the sun rise,
To watch the full moon.
Join me to go outside running through the wide fields and huge woods.
I'll run until I drop down on the ground, deadly tired.
I'll stay up all night to watch you sleep.
To make sure nothing happens to you.
I won't let anyone hurt you.
And in the morning you'll find me asleep.
Because I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore.
You'll find me next to you, really close.
Just because it feels safer and warmer.
And because it would make me sleep better,
Knowing that,
Whenever I wake up,
You'll be there.

Bye Bye Beautiful

Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting




Nightwish - Bye Bye Beautiful

Missing you

I was fine with missing you,
Like that.
Until today,
Until I started missing your presence and your voice...
And I never thought it would be like this one day.
It feels weird.

The past.

This whole situation is giving me a huge deja-vu.
Actually everything that happens lately is giving me huge flasbacks.
What is it that you want from me ?
Stop coming back for a second round, I am not you anymore.