The answer to the question you never asked me.

Why was I so caught up and so hurted?

Firstly, if you wanna know something about me, ask me instead of 1 of my best friends.
Answer:
-If you leave me alone and hurt me, it will hurt me 10 times harder than it will hurt you.
-If you leave me&hurt me like that, you will damage my trust in you.
So yes, thinking before acting is better. Better luck next time. I hope these things will cross your mind. 

Don't mistake me for you.
I am NOT you. 

We are different, in case you didn't notice yet.