Magic

How come I never get bored of seeing you.
And you keep being amazing and beautiful.
I just cannot describe it.
Only two weeks remain until I step on your ground again.
I know I am going to miss people, though I cannot wait to be there again.
For some reason you are my city, you are my home.
And I will not forget a single memory made there.

Home

I remember leaving you.
I remember going on and leaving that place.
A place called home.
Living there for such a long time.
I miss my lessons.
I miss my teachers.
I miss my classmates.
I miss the canteen.
I miss the appartment where my hostfamily lived.
I miss the sounds of traffic, alarms going off.
One month fireworks.
I miss the cold and the warmth.
I miss my subway station.
I miss my way to school.
I miss my homework.
I miss you home, now more than ever.

Struggle

Losing...
Slipping...

And I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I wish the fight ended...

Sunset

Fire, warm and sometimes burning...
Yet I know you mean no harm...
You are just trying to give me warmth when I am cold.
You are just trying to light my darkest days.

Spring, so much happines.
You want me to be happy.

Summer, a playful summer breeze.
You are trying to cool me off.
You play with my hair.
Running it through your fingers.

Autumn, Stormy and colorful.
You calm the storm in me with showing me your last sunshine.
And with your colors you keep me close, because I love the way your leafs look.
Such warm colors even when it is getting colder by the day.
Those colors warm my heart and leave me fascinated.

But I know that,

To keep you warm and light your days...
To make you happy...
To cool you off...
To calm the storm in you...
To warm your heart and keep you near...

You need to see the sunset,
She will be there,
For the rest of your life.

<3

Marry you

At that moment it was just the two of us.
And I felt so in love,
I felt so happy,
That I wished that feeling would never go away.
You might need time,
More time than I need.
But I hope one day you will say these words to me :).

Tim

There are these times when I just find you simply amazing :).

I love you honey <3

Excluded.

So...
If you do not accept me for who I am,
Then I do not need you in my life,
Then you were never really a friend of me anyway.


So...


Bye unimportant people...

Love you.

Weirdo,
Jerk,
Sweetheart,
Idiot,
Teddybear,
Sweety,
Careless,

'I sometimes forget how beautiful you are on the inside and the outside, I love you sweetheart'

Whatever negative it might be....
I guess most of them are not true...

And I just wanted to tell you how much I love you <3

China

I miss you so much.

Yet I know you are only one flight away.
I can not wait to see you again.

Your music makes me fly,
Calms me down,
Touches my soul.
Like you were the ground on which I was born and raised.
It feels more like a home to me than my own country.

Hearing your music right now,
Makes me homesick.
Listening and watching old weather reports online make me homesick.

Even without motivation,
THIS reminds me of the reason why.
Why I want to do this so badly.

All I have to say for now to you is,
I love you
And one day I will feel your ground underneath my feet again.

Lost

I keep wondering,
When will we find our way back home？
Where did we lost it,
When did it broke?
I really don't know.
I live through the moments that I do know,
Or at least think I know...

Goodbye

Your actions speak for itself.
I have been here before.
And I don't want to come here again.
This whole thing is making me sick.
I am flabbergasted.
I am done.
Bye~

Empty

I am just tired of fighting...
I have had enough.
I just want to be happy,
And live a normal life...

The world.

We aren't the ones that are crazy.
The whole world is fucked up,
By racism, bullying, war, discrimination and so on.
I know I am not alone.

Because I know you feel the same.

Up in heaven

Now I know.
I really hope God up there treats you better.

<3

Stranger

You should have known that,
Back then.

You did not want to be around anyone else.
You already had your own world.
And that was enough for you.
You felt safe in your own fantasy world.
Whatever you imagined,
Everything could come true.

You should have known.
You have always felt different from the others.
The way you looked at the rest of the world.

Without much understanding,
But how could they understand,
If you did not understand yourself.

Emotions that came and went.
Intense emotions.
Year after year.
And finally you found out that you react different than everyone around you.

Still you did not quite understand,
But you knew you were different.

No-one around you had ever felt music calling out your soul,
Calling out an indescribable feeling.

No-one had ever heard of nature that made you feel like a child.
Nature that made you feel like you belonged in it.
Like you did not belong in the world that exists today.
Big cities...
Nature...
You thought that everything should go back to nature and live like we used to.
Nature could bring you much peace in your heart.
It is one of the few things that could always calm you down.

Music could also easily get you emotional,
Especially when it reminded you of a sad situation,
Something bad that had happened.
The memory that music recalled,
The feelings or thoughts you have towards that memory,
You would feel them again.


I guess you were a stranger to yourself.
But now that you are older,
You finally seem to understand who you are.
And why you feel so different.
And you have found someone that know exactly how this all feels.

You should have known back then,
That you were different.
You are different.
And there might be people who do understand you.
There might be people who do not understand you.
But I know you will never change.
You will always stay who you are.

Flap your wings honey, fly !

So if you really want this so badly,
Then find a way to get it.

Don't let anything stand in your way.
Even a way with obstacles is a way.
Accept that way with obstacles.
You can reach your destination.
If you try.
I know you can.
You have been through a lot of things.

And remember,
If things get hard,
You can always flap your wings.
Spread your wings,
And fly.

Superior?

So here's the thing,
It's like you act like you are better than someone else...
But actually,
You are not.
You are not better than someone else,
And someone else is not better than you.
We are equal.

Moreover,
Not every opinion should be said.
Sometimes it's better,
To keep your words,
Inside your mind.

Road

I hope that whatever you do,
You will find your own road that leads to your happines.
I hope you will find a road that leads you to somewhere,
Where you will feel safe,
Some place that feels like home.

Subway station

I felt like a stranger on the ground.
When you left me standing there,
Alone.
Waiting.
And I tried so hard not to cry when you walked away.
I felt sad.
Depressed.
For weeks.

But I found my way out through this maze.
We left everything behind us.
And I found my way out through a lot of other things.
Now I hope you will find your way too,
Some day.
You need it,
I know you do. :)

Hiding place.

So you got your perfect hiding place.
You hide out.
No-one finds out where you are.

Did he know where you were?
Or were you the only person that knew your hiding place

But right now there is no use in hiding out there anymore.
Because we know where you have hidden yourself.
Don't worry.
Nothing bad is going to happen.
Not like in the war movies when they shoot you down when they find you.
Because we won't harm you.
We just want you to be happy.