The past

I still remember the day I started this blog.
It was just after you left me.
After you left me hanging and waiting for days.
You told me I had to wait.
I was so afraid, I couldn't bare feeling anxious anymore.
So I started talking to you again.
And you broke up with me.

After that, I found someone else.
I thought this time it would be different.
But I was wrong again.
Some people just don't have it in them to be the one for you.
Some people just don't know how to handle you.
Some people are not worth your time or love.
When you have given everything.
When you have tried everything.
When you don't get a second chance, a real second chance.
You stop caring.
When you know all you did was love that one person.
You cared more about him than anyone else in the world.

It feels like I have lost who I truely was.
It feels like I lost my friends and family.
I know I might not get back.
I know it might hurt.
But I want you to know.
What you did was mean.
It was plain mean.
You didn't think for a second about the consequences or about my feelings.
In fact I really wonder if you every thought about my feelings.
All I know is that for now it's the past.
If you ever consider coming back, you better make an effort.
Because I am not.