How come I never get bored of seeing you.
And you keep being amazing and beautiful.
I just cannot describe it.
Only two weeks remain until I step on your ground again.
I know I am going to miss people, though I cannot wait to be there again.
For some reason you are my city, you are my home.
And I will not forget a single memory made there.
dinsdag 14 augustus 2012
Magic
zaterdag 16 juni 2012
Home
I remember leaving you.
I remember going on and leaving that place.
A place called home.
Living there for such a long time.
I miss my lessons.
I miss my teachers.
I miss my classmates.
I miss the canteen.
I miss the appartment where my hostfamily lived.
I miss the sounds of traffic, alarms going off.
One month fireworks.
I miss the cold and the warmth.
I miss my subway station.
I miss my way to school.
I miss my homework.
I miss you home, now more than ever.
donderdag 12 april 2012
Struggle
Slipping...
And I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I wish the fight ended...
zondag 1 april 2012
Sunset
Fire, warm and sometimes burning...
Yet I know you mean no harm...
You are just trying to give me warmth when I am cold.
You are just trying to light my darkest days.
Spring, so much happines.
You want me to be happy.
Summer, a playful summer breeze.
You are trying to cool me off.
You play with my hair.
Running it through your fingers.
Autumn, Stormy and colorful.
You calm the storm in me with showing me your last sunshine.
And with your colors you keep me close, because I love the way your leafs look.
Such warm colors even when it is getting colder by the day.
Those colors warm my heart and leave me fascinated.
But I know that,
To keep you warm and light your days...
To make you happy...
To cool you off...
To calm the storm in you...
To warm your heart and keep you near...
You need to see the sunset,
She will be there,
For the rest of your life.
<3
vrijdag 23 maart 2012
woensdag 21 maart 2012
Excluded.
If you do not accept me for who I am,
Then I do not need you in my life,
Then you were never really a friend of me anyway.
So...
Bye unimportant people...
woensdag 14 maart 2012
Love you.
Jerk,
Sweetheart,
Idiot,
Teddybear,
Sweety,
Careless,
'I sometimes forget how beautiful you are on the inside and the outside, I love you sweetheart'
Whatever negative it might be....
I guess most of them are not true...
And I just wanted to tell you how much I love you <3
dinsdag 6 maart 2012
China
Yet I know you are only one flight away.
I can not wait to see you again.
Your music makes me fly,
Calms me down,
Touches my soul.
Like you were the ground on which I was born and raised.
It feels more like a home to me than my own country.
Hearing your music right now,
Makes me homesick.
Listening and watching old weather reports online make me homesick.
Even without motivation,
THIS reminds me of the reason why.
Why I want to do this so badly.
All I have to say for now to you is,
I love you
And one day I will feel your ground underneath my feet again.
zondag 12 februari 2012
Lost
When will we find our way back home?
Where did we lost it,
When did it broke?
I really don't know.
I live through the moments that I do know,
Or at least think I know...
donderdag 9 februari 2012
Goodbye
I have been here before.
And I don't want to come here again.
This whole thing is making me sick.
I am flabbergasted.
I am done.
Bye~
dinsdag 7 februari 2012
Empty
I have had enough.
I just want to be happy,
And live a normal life...
dinsdag 31 januari 2012
The world.
The whole world is fucked up,
By racism, bullying, war, discrimination and so on.
I know I am not alone.
Because I know you feel the same.
zondag 29 januari 2012
zaterdag 28 januari 2012
Stranger
Back then.
You did not want to be around anyone else.
You already had your own world.
And that was enough for you.
You felt safe in your own fantasy world.
Whatever you imagined,
Everything could come true.
You should have known.
You have always felt different from the others.
The way you looked at the rest of the world.
Without much understanding,
But how could they understand,
If you did not understand yourself.
Emotions that came and went.
Intense emotions.
Year after year.
And finally you found out that you react different than everyone around you.
Still you did not quite understand,
But you knew you were different.
No-one around you had ever felt music calling out your soul,
Calling out an indescribable feeling.
No-one had ever heard of nature that made you feel like a child.
Nature that made you feel like you belonged in it.
Like you did not belong in the world that exists today.
Big cities...
Nature...
You thought that everything should go back to nature and live like we used to.
Nature could bring you much peace in your heart.
It is one of the few things that could always calm you down.
Music could also easily get you emotional,
Especially when it reminded you of a sad situation,
Something bad that had happened.
The memory that music recalled,
The feelings or thoughts you have towards that memory,
You would feel them again.
I guess you were a stranger to yourself.
But now that you are older,
You finally seem to understand who you are.
And why you feel so different.
And you have found someone that know exactly how this all feels.
You should have known back then,
That you were different.
You are different.
And there might be people who do understand you.
There might be people who do not understand you.
But I know you will never change.
You will always stay who you are.
zondag 15 januari 2012
Flap your wings honey, fly !
Then find a way to get it.
Don't let anything stand in your way.
Even a way with obstacles is a way.
Accept that way with obstacles.
You can reach your destination.
If you try.
I know you can.
You have been through a lot of things.
And remember,
If things get hard,
You can always flap your wings.
Spread your wings,
And fly.
Superior?
It's like you act like you are better than someone else...
But actually,
You are not.
You are not better than someone else,
And someone else is not better than you.
We are equal.
Moreover,
Not every opinion should be said.
Sometimes it's better,
To keep your words,
Inside your mind.
zaterdag 14 januari 2012
Road
You will find your own road that leads to your happines.
I hope you will find a road that leads you to somewhere,
Where you will feel safe,
Some place that feels like home.
Subway station
When you left me standing there,
Alone.
Waiting.
And I tried so hard not to cry when you walked away.
I felt sad.
Depressed.
For weeks.
But I found my way out through this maze.
We left everything behind us.
And I found my way out through a lot of other things.
Now I hope you will find your way too,
Some day.
You need it,
I know you do. :)
Hiding place.
You hide out.
No-one finds out where you are.
Did he know where you were?
Or were you the only person that knew your hiding place
But right now there is no use in hiding out there anymore.
Because we know where you have hidden yourself.
Don't worry.
Nothing bad is going to happen.
Not like in the war movies when they shoot you down when they find you.
Because we won't harm you.
We just want you to be happy.