An uneven number

You know, that is not the point...
And if you think long and hard, you would know what's the real reason...

Uneven numbers work in science, but in real life between human being, most of the time they don't work...
And especially not in my world...

And I don't think it matters what I say or do,
Because you won't fully see and understand it.

Alone.

'If this is true, I thought then, what will I think?
Will I stay but rather I would get away
I'm scared that I won't find a thing
And afraid that I'll turn out to be alone'

'Krezip - I would stay'

Memories deleted.

Replacing your memories with someone else's memories...
Sounds kinda sick, they change your whole life and no-one notices...

I wonder what would happen if I would do that to myself.
At least I would not recognize your face anymore.
I would not feel sadness when I hang out with you anymore,
Because I would not remember anything.
And you wouldn't have to have anything to feel guilty about anymore.

Empty.

I wish you were still here...
But it feels like you are too far away and I am so sick of being sad.
I don't want to feel like this anymore,
I feel left alone by you, the thought of you makes me damn sad.
The thought of you makes me feel empty.
So that's why I decided.
To leave you alone.
So you can figure it out on your own.
Maybe you will realise it, maybe you won't...
I am not going to repeat myself.
I made this clear.
The rest is up to you.